26.8.09

on lost friendship

why do i get jealous of friends' friendships with others when it is (usually) my fault that our friendship drifted? and even when fault is not an issue, when friendships just change and get less close, i get jealous. jealous of other's ability to form close friendships. to keep them. why am i so bad at friendships? why do i let people annoy me so easily? there are many other questions, but i resent that i get jealous.

someday...better social skills
someday