i wonder if i could succeed in cutting fat out of my diet. for a week or something. the problem is, everything delicious has fat in it.
i realize more and more how shallow i am in many ways. if i cared about human rights or the environment, i'd do more. but i don't.
also, i will never be as great as Patty, but i'm okay with that. because david still loves me and cuddles with me and makes me listen to weird ass music that broadens my horizons. in short, i still get to hang out with a really cool dude whom i love. and i can be nostalgic, but being upset tht it's never going to be the same again is pointless. which doesn't mean i still won't get sad about it, but it makes it more bearable. he's crazy about her. once he was crazy about me. things change.
deal with it.

okay.
i start work today. maybe i'll be able to pay my parents back. they aren't letting me be an adult. which is very nice of them, really. but it also pisses me off. so as soon as i get the means, i will attempt to slip some money under their pillows.

In Germany I used to have a little plastic tool set that I would use to pretend to fix my bike when Daddy was fixing one of the bikes. He was good at that, so I wanted to be, too.
I am not myself; I emulate.

a goal

i have spent over $150 since monday. that is bad. the minute i get a paycheck, i blow it. sheesh. SO, i have decided not to feel too bad about it, on the condition that after college [read: two weeks] i will start living within my means. means tht i actually earn. not the means that are floating around for grad school. i have to stop dipping in to that. especially since i won't have any college expenses. so.
get a job (please, Kitchen Kaboodle? Borders? Children's Museum?)
spend wisely
create a budget

stuff like that

and i will read books