who the hell is manheim steamroller?

how is jennifer lopez so famous in the admired, super-star way? she's not even good. her songs suck! wtf?!! they aren't even good *POP*!

how is jennifer lopez so famous in the admired, super-star way? she's not even good. her songs suck! wtf?!! they aren't even good *POP*!

how is jennifer lopez so famous in the admired, super-star way? she's not even good. her songs suck! wtf?!! they aren't even good *POP*!

i wish i had you to come home to
to give goodnight sleepy kisses to
to cuddle
to love
to feel soft and warm and loving
i wish you were here, to my right, taking up the place that i am leaving empty
i wish i had you here to love physicall, instead of far away mentally, verbally...
i wish you were here so i could hold you

please pity the fool

i hate it here. people drive like maniacs and i feel like everybody is laughing at me because i don't fit in. i don't have the energy to look for a job, and i don't have the energy to interview for one. i don't want to get roped down here, either. i haven't even unpacked, because that would mean this is real. no. this is just another hotel. this is just a shitty vacation.

i should have stayed in portland and gotten a teaching credential. foregone this dc bullshit. this is no longer my dream, and probably hasn't been for a few years. dumb dumb dumb and depressed.

I'm not a DC girl. I'm a portland girl. with a portland love. and a family only a two-hour flight away.
now i'm here and i don't want to be here. i don't like it. and things are stressful. i hate it. i want to go home. and then to portland. and then home again. repeat. like normal. this doesn't feel right.

i knew it?