all in a day's work

while i was watching "the office" last night, i was able to identify whose jobs i did, as well as all the jobs my co-workers do. kinda cool. as in, our office is so small and deals in such low volumes that each of us takes on at least three or four people's worth of jobs as measured in "the office."
i'm not wording this right.
whatever.

also, i came to the conclusion (again) that i'm basically anorexic, but i'm just not very good at it. also, certain things keep any attempts at being a "good" one from working too well. which is good. again with the bad explaining.
these are just things i want to note for myself, anyway.

looking forward to making friends. hopefully that happens.
and now, to the cat and the INDIANA JONES!!!!!!

unattainable

no sooner do i free myself than i trap myself again
will i ever make a decision i won't regret?
will i ever be happy and not miss things and people?
i miss my portland life, and now it's farther away than ever

what have i done....again?

two damn things

"...maybe we could go out sometime..."
"sure..."

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who am i close to?
nobody

i am at odds with myself

i am split between my two parents. half of me wants to just chill and enjoy being a couch potato, and the other half can't sit still
oy

he worries too much

damn it. the one time i didn't push it, he actually wanted to.
i missed the opportunity; i'm a little pissed. we could have talked, cried, and then done it. like old times.
ah, well, i'm still happy for the rest. that was also wonderfully like old times. i wonder what would have happened had i stayed...