mac fail

i'd like to learn how to get over feeling like a failure faster...it's really a bummer. I know I fucked up...but do I have to feel like a fuckup in general? Repenting is no fun. I can't go back and undo my mistakes...and it's not like this was a terrible one that affected anyone personally. I did technically lose someone else money...I should pay that person back and own up to my folly.

But until then, why do I have to feel so bad about this? It was a mistake I made...over a year ago, but only discovered a few hours ago. Dammit. Dammit dammit.

you know, it's a puzzlement

i don't think i can do this
want this

but can't seem to stop, either

musical memory roundabout

Road Tripping with Ginger was always the best.

at times terrified and excited

curious
but deathly afraid of the reality
of the experience

yet thinking of it
often
somewhat with longing...

not sure
of anything

plath
makes death beautiful
genius