i wonder if i could succeed in cutting fat out of my diet. for a week or something. the problem is, everything delicious has fat in it.
i realize more and more how shallow i am in many ways. if i cared about human rights or the environment, i'd do more. but i don't.
also, i will never be as great as Patty, but i'm okay with that. because david still loves me and cuddles with me and makes me listen to weird ass music that broadens my horizons. in short, i still get to hang out with a really cool dude whom i love. and i can be nostalgic, but being upset tht it's never going to be the same again is pointless. which doesn't mean i still won't get sad about it, but it makes it more bearable. he's crazy about her. once he was crazy about me. things change.
deal with it.

okay.
i start work today. maybe i'll be able to pay my parents back. they aren't letting me be an adult. which is very nice of them, really. but it also pisses me off. so as soon as i get the means, i will attempt to slip some money under their pillows.