i wonder if i'll miss portland
i think i will, and i hope i will come back someday

i also wished that he wanted to be with me. i think i'd stay if that were the case. but now it feels like i am ending it all by myself, when in fact i have been prolonging it for the past year. i wish things were different, and i am scared and excited to see what my new life is going to be like
but i know i'll miss hima nd my old life terribly, too.